It’s not you;it’s wut many think of you
emo.emo.emo. what does it really mean? i find as a totally pathetic state and disposition– let’s say maybe i’m a dropout of bs e.q. (emotional ïntelligence quotient) in-depth understanding,specialization and application.theres nothing like it right? guys please let me know if one really exists. hehe. just made it up. actually, im secretly hoping there’s a shortcourse easily available–coz ill definitely sign-up right through with no second thoughts!
why do some people have such low e.q.? has it something to do with environment? genetic structure? acquired lifestyle or its an unknown phenomenal human disorder? its so funny whenever i get caughtup in one of the rare situations wherein it is a requirement (and i say when there’s really no room for emotionless individuals) to be very emotional. i could last there and be like them for a while,fine. but when i gets really nasty quiet and everyone is teary and blowing noses, seems like something in my heart ticks and will explode any minute. quite awkwardly amazing feeling, believe me.
you may think im far more pathetic than anyone esle here alive. i have the same feeling some wicked chances in my life too. go ahead and let me know and im open for bad comments and trash talking! ive trained my heart and now its like a pinyata (noun;mexican smashing object used in parties).
deep sigh.
i still believe being emo is just a natural pathetic state in all normal human’s life.its just i have a hard time figuring out my own state because of my low e.q. or my pessimistic attitude or my gift of sarcasm. emo has something to do with anger, self-esteem and misguided self-awareness. im everyday willing to enhance my emotional intelligence so i could better manage emotions of my own as well as others. i wont quit. remember–
"one of the saddest sights is someone who has given up."
